guitar VS vox

Everybody has their own method of songwriting.  99% of the time I tend to start with the music.  Maybe because it's that I am more of a guitarist than a singer.  In fact - I don't really even think of myself as a singer.  When I say it out loud - it even sounds weird to me to this day even though in my first 2 bands I WAS the lead singer.  I think I saw myself more like a Richie Sambora wanna-be - I thought he was the "cool" in Bon Jovi.  I was a vocalist more out of necessity.   When I was in my last band - I occasionally sang live but I was more comfy in my groove as the guitarist.   Reality sets in though and it comes down to the control of one's own destiny.   I don't like to have to rely on anyone else and as I have found out time and time again - something happens to change the situation and usually for the worse.  When that band ended - I really labored over the thought of "what do I do next?"   I wasn't sure if I was just going to find another band to be the guitarist or would I try and do something even completely out of character.  Then, it hit me.  Songs were pouring out of my guitar and right behind them were lyrics and melody lines that not only fit my voice but they were saying things that "I" wanted to say.   In the last band - I wrote a lot of music but stayed out of the lyrical side for the most part because I felt that the singer should be singing about things that meant something to them -so the lead singer in that band wrote the lyrics to my particular compositions.  Didn't bother me at all.  I just got used to that idea.  Well, as we know, life can get topsy-turvy and when it happened to mine - lyrics and melodies started to flow.  At the end of any relationship - there is no better way to express and deal with your feelings that through art and those emotional events certainly jump started my own music again.  It was the best healing process in the world for me.  In song - I was able to deal with the emotions & the heartbreak but also with other demons like betrayal and trust issues from hell.   Some of it I dealt with head-on with songs that are clearly about those feelings from a very heartfelt way but I am also a smart ass & some of it surfaced in very tongue-in-cheek ways that brought a smile to my face while at the same time was expressing emotions based upon those experiences.  My new CD will certainly have some of these songs on it as well as new compositions that still keep coming every week and on that note.......I'm outtahere